Stay Commited

So its been awhile and I've had some really crazy things happen. I read a quote that said " I know He'll never give me more then I can bear but sometimes I wish it didn't trust me so much". LOL

My main struggle is procrastination and commitment. I've got to start doing better and there is no time like the present.

This Life Ain't Easy

One of things that's hardest to do is to understand this life ain't easy. Yeah being a young, black, christian, female is looked upon, by some people, as a positive thing but it's also a hard situation. The conflict between the natural man & the spiritual man seems to intensify with each passing day. I mean isn't life suppose to be easier? Aren't I suppose to the feel relief after I accepted Christ? Then why so much turmoil, pain, hurt? I did what I was supposed to do, I came to Christ, but at times it feels like I'm being penalized for doing so. 

This is a loving God, a caring God... then why has He allowed me to go through some of the things I've gone through. Things I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. What did I do to deserve some of these things? Did I really mess up that bad? My mind is blown I can't fathom the reasoning...